RN HNB-BC, C-IAYT, E-RYT500,
I'm a lot of things:
Holistic Hospice & Palliative Nurse.
Integrative Chronic Pain Specialist.
Certified Yoga Therapist.
Yoga & Pilates Teacher Trainer.
Anatomist. Bodyworker. Feminist.
Rasamaya® Method Creator.
( 40 THINGS I KNOW FOR SURE AT 40.)
Carrie's Curriculum Vitae
RN = Registered Nurse, HNB-BC = Board Certified Holistic RN,
C-IAYT = Certified International Yoga Therapist,
E-RYT500 = Yoga Alliance 500hr Experienced Registered Yoga Teacher & Teacher Trainer, CPT = National Academy of Sports Medicine Certified Personal Trainer
My life is about
I have been living, researching, teaching and breathing the nine core emotions, or rasas, over the last two decades in an attempt to deconstruct what it means to have a beautiful life. My quest to understand has led me all over the world, and I have spent godless gobs of money educating myself in various movement styles, anatomy courses, body therapies, spirituality, happiness and mindfulness techniques.
What has all this abundant, beautiful research taught me?
That life is the balance between pleasure and pain.
You simply can’t understand one, unless you are willing to accept the other. I know with 100% certainty that pain can be a catalyst for extreme beauty in your life if you are willing to do the work.
To have a beautiful life means to accept everything happening for you, both positive and negative, to fully experience each emotion, and then transcend beyond it without attachment and with gratitude. That takes a shit ton of practice. Life is not a dress rehearsal; it’s whole-hearted living out loud.
I believe that small changes can have big impact. I believe the body is poetry, even the body that hurts. I will work with you to bring out the best in yourself so you can bring out the best in the others. I will teach you how to learn to sit with your pain first, and then to free yourself from its shackles second. I will give you the tools you need to recognize pleasure and beauty, because it’s already staring you in the face. I am not afraid to push your boundaries. That is what being an educator means.
I took a vow of truthfulness a long time ago. That means some days you won’t like me, but that’s okay, I can handle it.
On a personal level, I have dug deep to be the woman I am today. I’ve done a lot of stuff, and am continuing to do a lot of stuff. In fact, every single day, I wake up feeling like I’m just getting started. I opened my first yoga studio at 24 years old on a zero percent credit card, a wing and a prayer. I had no idea what I was doing, but I’ve been part of the holistic community ever since. I turned 41 last year. That feels monumental. I’ve been at this a while, and I’ve been successful. I dream big. I have big plans for Rasamaya. This is just the beginning. If you care to, you can read about the stuff I’ve done at the link here:
A FEW OTHER FUN FACTS ABOUT ME:
I'M STRONG AS HELL.
I swear a lot. I don’t apologize unless I mean it. I was once described as a pitbull: tenacious, sensitive and fierce. I’m okay with that. Sometimes I cry in the middle of the day because life is so f*ing beautiful. I believe in raw compassion and am that person that cries in every movie, wedding and funeral, even if I don’t know the people involved.
I AM STAUNCHLY FEMINIST.
I surround myself with a tight circle of other feminists, who I keep on speed dial on my feminist crisis bat phone. We even have our own call sign – it’s a giant, “F” in the sky. Look up at night sometime, you might see it. We all believe we are superheroines, and we are. I prefer to associate with imperfect women, who believe in possibility and give themselves permission to screw up big, and who know that failure is simply motivation to reinvent.
I WORK ON LOVE EVERY DAY.
I have failed at love before, some days I still epically fail. The scariest thing I have ever done is to pack up my life to pursue a guy who I had only spoken to a few times. He was the conference service director at an island retreat center where I run some of my yoga trainings and conferences. When I briefly met him I heard a voice clear as day say, “pay attention.” It made me turn back around for a second look. I couldn’t get him out of my head, and a short time later I put my apartment in storage and pursued an end of season job on the island that would put our desks six feet apart. I got the job. We moved into together after less then a month of dating. I am now married to Nate, my punk rock Buddha in a corporate suit. We work hard at our relationship, because really, love matters most.
I LOVE GRIT.
I became a nurse to get on the inside of the conversation happening in medicine. My favorite quote from Sri Swami Aurobindo goes, “In order to see, you have to stop being in the middle of the picture.” I also believe sometimes you have to be right in the middle of it. Nursing allows me to look at the picture from the inside. Nurses have grit, and I love grit. I live with grit under my nails, you just can’t see it under my dark nail polish. Being a nurse in hospice is an honor and a badge I wear proudly. I am honored to work with the most deeply committed hospice team on the planet. The people at this organization inspire me every day to stay elbow deep in the muck of creating positive change in the world.
I GO TO THE OCEAN TO PRAY.
Every week, even in the middle of winter. My friend once called the ocean her cathedral. It’s mine too.
I DON'T DO SAFE.
I trust my gut. It’s taken me to India, on a solo trip cross country, and guided me in countless business decisions. My gut is normally right, but occasionally it’s almost gotten me killed. Being so close to death has permanently changed my lens on life. I think to understand light you must also understand dark, so I find walks in graveyards comforting, and I totally have a weird thing for skulls. I can tell you with complete confidence, it’s really okay at the end.
I'M OBSESSED WITH ANATOMY AND BODY LANGUAGE.
I’m fascinated by the stories our bodies tell, and the gorgeousness of the aging process. I believe that your posture is as much about the architecture of your body as it is the story that got you where you are today. I’ll teach you to let go of your old story and create a new one. I believe it only gets better as we get age, or at least it gets a hell of a lot more fun if you let it.
I’M A CREATIVE.
Because I’m a literal idea a minute, sometimes my follow through sucks, and I always have a zillion projects going at once. But my follow through for my family, my clients and my students is always my 100%. When I teach it exhausts me to the core. I find teaching exhilarating, tender, and inspirational.
TEACHING AND MENTORING IS MY LIFELINE.
I believe our soul purpose in life is to mentor the next generation. I tell my teacher trainees to suck me dry with questions. My goal at the end of every course is to have them surpass me in accomplishment, and for them to literally blow the damn doors off the inspirational and movement community. I’m working to create an army of spiritual badasses.